Struggling in The Quarantine

It´s been almost 2 months I didn't write on my blog. Many things came up on my mind, my spirit was slowing down and I felt stressed and bored so much after stuck at home because of corona virus disease 2019 (Covid-19). I guess almost everyone in this world feel the same with me. Study from home, work from home, can't go out to meet friends, almost everything do by internet.

At the first two weeks it's so fun for me, especially I'm kind of introvert person. I watched some movies, also series by Netflix, slept late, woke up, eat, slept, woke up late, scrolled social media, watched tv, listened the music, eat, slept, read some books, and so on randomly. Almost everyday. Then slowly but sure I felt drained, it's not so fun anymore because it's became daily activity, everyday at home without ability to go out, I can't choose, I stuck. So be at home it's not a precious thing at this quarantine period. Especially with news about Covid-19 everyday and everywhere by Tv and social media. Oh big NO. 

I realize my life was so messy without routine activity, not focus, without goal, just randomly, maybe sometimes I enjoy it but not for everyday. I felt disappointed inside to my self. I know I'm so hard to my self but I used to do it because if not, I'll feel disappointed, sad, stress and mad to my self, and loose my motivation also. That's why is really important for me to set my routine day. When I was working I also used to do it. I have list of things to do, plans, timeline with deadline. And I also do it for many things, for example when I was study in school, university and also when I prepared my wedding, if not I feel lost and make me stress. I got that habbit from my dad. He teach me and my brother when we were kid and I like it and also it's help me. And even now I not work anymore I think I need to set my daily routine and set some goals. I need to growing up and bigger, I think human also need it to survive in this world, not just the plant. 

Then I started to make some goals but this time I did something different with broke down the goals, problems that could happen and think about the sollutions that usually I just put on my mind but this time I wrote it down on my note book after wrote the goals. I got that idea when I had conversation with Barbara, my sister-in-law when we were sharing about life, childhood, psychology and many things. Kind of deep topics. She advised me to start write on the note book everyday about my feeling if I feel sad, happy, my daily or anything. To write what make me sad, stress, disappointed, or if I have problem, and write about the sollution or some acts that I could do for it. then in another day I can check it. It's really good idea so I start to do it. So thank you so much for Barbara. 😘